RANDOM THOUGHTS

I'm done with my shift for the day.

On may way home I decided to take an alternative route which some might think a not so bright to do. We'll, thought this one is not intendent. I just want some time for myself to ponder about.

Road have a lot of vihecles, a lot of people, polluted area.

Then, I saw the longest public school. And I noticed that there were a lot of students walking on their way to school. Different fashion statement, faces and some you'll feel a bit of loneliness.

Well i belong to that group. Those people whose still looking for an answer.

Answer about their existence.

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BUHAY

May nakilala ako. Dati ko syang ka offimate. Pwede nyo ako tawaging drama queen o senti, pwede ring kumuha lang ng panaki butas. Pero ganun talaga siguro ang buhay. Kahit wala pa ako nararamdaman sa kanya pinilit ko ng maging kami. Umaasa na matutungan nya ako na malimot. At sa susunod na ipagpalit o iwanan ulit ako, hindi na ako masasaktan. Ganun lang, sorry na pero kailangan ko lang maw mapagbalingan. Di ba para mas masaya at gumaan naman ang mararamdaman ko. At sa tamang panahon baka mahalin ko na rin sya.

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Alone

Literally and figuratively, i'm alone.

I don't have a lot of friends. At home, it's always me and the four corners of the wall. I kept asking myself why these things happenned to me. I so hate the world. I up to now I'm still feeling so left out. Some might think I'm still blessed compare to others. They are probably right, but the difference is that they have someone who they can call as FAMILY, me i have me, myself and i. My older sister is somewhat experiencing the same thing I'm into.

Am ready tired of thingking on what to do.

Cont...

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wala pa rin

Hay, hanggang ngayon may hinahanap pa rin ako. Direction, oo di ko pa rin alam kung saan ako papunta. Ang hirap talaga. May bagong love, may bagong work, bagong apartment pero bakit ang feeling ko luma pa rin. Kainis talaga. Maging bago ka na sana. Tama na. Di na maibabalik ang dati.

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i need someone to talk...

It's a bit ironic. All i ever wanted was to work in the morning... First with a company that is well known for 100% customer service and award winning home grown talent. It was enjoyable and worth while however there were people who will really make your day miserable and sometimes

like hell. I was holding my decisions before leaving the company but for some reasons i decided to leave. Then, i was bum for almost a month. I've been thinking a lot, things that i want to do and my plan. Another opportunity came, again as a supervisor, morning job. I was tenacious before starting my week but when i started my work today, it feels the same way when i started with my first morning job. Someone told me that it's all in the mind. Try to fake things that you like your work and later you'll love it too. Probably, I was still looking for someone to prevent or someone who i look up to but that person left me.

I really need to be strong and hold tight to whatever i have now.

Hold tight Rjay... Hold tight... All your plans and dreams will come true... Just hold on tight...

Those are the words that i kept telling to myself...

Now, tears were flowing to my eyes while writing these words...

Because the truth is still don't know what to do...

So help me God...

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i see

When he left me, i decided to live alone which did not work out. Now i knew that no man is an island. But my tragic love story is another post that i have to decide. This is about a person not really much related nor we still that line of deep friendship. In some ways we have similarities which i noticed a bit annoying that i fail to feel when i was in that shoes. here are some traits that we share: big dreamer have high hopes show off let see, months after i knew that person i realized that during my younger years i was much focused with my friends. no. one were good for me except my friends. i enjoy cooking for them. hanging out and almost spending every moment with them. that delimited made me complete and happy. i fail to realize that there was someone in leaving behind. i focused to much with my friends not knowing that I'm making one person's life miserable. i did that door almost a year. just for of to found out that the people that i spent most of my time will leave of too during my darkest times. i felt that i made a complete fool out of myself. i just wish that, that person will not del or experience the same way that i did. i almost lost everything. one sad story of my life. new year and trying to get a new life.

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Happy Day

Today just wanna share the things that i did random...

Went malling for almost 8 hours just pigging-out (qual eggs, buko juice, pasta, donut, burger, fries, hotdog, softdrinks, coffee and chicken)

Bet on lotto which i really don't do. Sincdd i lack experience anm dunno whjt to do, the lotto dealer just told me to have random numbers. (i'll check the winning combination tomorrow)

Played lucky cards and won 500 bucks. At that moment i felt like a certified gambler. Yehey i call stepping out of the box.

On the sane side... I accomplish a lot of things. Renew my passport,
Gather and scan all my credentials (diploma, tor, valid ids, employment certificate, nbi clearance, etc). Then, on my way home i also recieve a call that i was accepted as a team lead and would be reporting tomorrow for a job offer... Congratulations to me

I also recieved several messages that i was shortlisted for working abroad in which the interview will be on the last week of January.

Today i am happy. All my plans seemed to be on the right track.

I an living the day at a time at the same time planning ahead of time. Might seemed complicated and not coherent but the good thing is that everything is on the right track. I am learned to take time and think on the things that i want to do with my life and enjoy life not thinking about my future and it worked.

Most especially, i visitde His house to give thanks and praise. Always telling that He knows what are the things that i an thankful for and the things i wanna do in the future. And i know that everything will happen as plan in due time. I just have a little more patience and trust.

Happy day today.
I an very thankful and wishing that this delimited will stay Forever.

Thank you so much for all the blessings com positive things that is coming into my life.

Thank you lord for giving me wisdom at talent T9 do the things that i Usually you doing.

Good night everyone and have a great day.

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plano, pangarap, at iba pa

Heto na yung feeling na parang hindi ko alam kung saan ako papunta, ano ang gusto ko, anu ulit ang mga pangarap ko.

Ngayon, iniisip ko kung anu nga bang mali ang magawa ko bakit ako parang nahihirapan.

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foods

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P!nk - Raise Your Glass

So raise your glass if you are wrong
In all the right ways... we will never be never be!
Anything but loud

Extra 2k lang...

It's a bit frustrating today... Just when I expected that I'll not qualify for any work abroad then here comes the agencies that I applied for asking for my credentials...

I have everything ready except for one "minor" issue... PASSPORT RENEWAL...

Well, it's not a problem, have an appoinment this Wednesday for renewal however I need to come up with additional Php2,000. Last December I have over spent a bit he he he...

Just find a way to answer all those needs....

Monday
13:00 interview with employer as an Executive Assistant for Saudi
15:00 interview with the employer as a Hotel Receptionist for Doha Qatar

Wednesday
contract signing as a TL for a Call Center Industry.


I still have trust that all my plans will push through...
Thoughts become reality

Food! food! Food!

Bagong Pagsisimula

Buti na lang may blog ako. Pede ko isulat lahat ng nararamdaman ko.

Alam mo ba na meron akong katangahan na ginawa. We decided to be apart (my long time partner for 8 y ears) and up to now 'di pa rin ako maka move on sa amin. We still have constant communication and sometimes I let my guard down and still text my ex-partner that i wish we could be together again.

Medyo stupid talaga ako. Hopeless Romantic and still never loose hope eventhough I know na di na kami magiging kami ulit.

learning how to cook

One of my interest is how to co different dishes and make my own twist in it. So far so good, all of them ara edible. Ha ha ha

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haluwin sa office

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7 months

Been a while since I've visited my bloi. I'm still single ha ha ha. Still waiting for the one who'll i grow up with but for now I'm enjoying myself.

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Thoughts become reality

Good morning!!!

I've been dreaming of having this since last year but due to some fortuitous events I missed a lot of things that I was supposed to give to myself... I even don't have a birthday gift for myself last year. Well, we all have to live with it and for sure I'm not the only one who experiences ups and downs...

I just wish that before my birthday comes or passed I would have one of the following:


One - A new phone!!!
(and yes!!! I've been wanting HTC Desire even before it was released)



















Second - A Laptop
I'm not very particular with the brand (best suitable for my budget without sacrificing the features)



















Third - A DSLR
Any brand also will do... (pref. either Nikon or Sony LOL)





















Last - To work abroad
Although I don't want to rush things but probably by first quarter of next year... I still need to contemplate and convince myself.

















I know in due time all on this will be given to me... It just need a little perseverance, attitude, hard work and a lot of positivity in life....

Tuesday Vargas' Wedding

The most meaningful, truthful and happy vows that I heard...
For those who are hopeless romantic please watch...




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Going/Getting Over…

For the past 3 months I’ve been experiencing rough times… Well what I’m talking about is I’m emotionally and financially drained… As in I have to adapt to a lot of things. I’m not the one I used to think I was. And what’s true about this experience is you’ll really know the people who will truly be with you along the way.


I’ve been thinking a lot of things on how to cope with my situation. Been doing things that I don’t usually do, been asking a lot of favor and been holding myself so that I won’t break into pieces… Then, I said to myself, “Boy you truly need to wake up, step up and do something.”


I need to make-up with my decisions… Here comes I planned to work abroad, and for some it is an opportunity that I’ll be missing. Well, to tell you a little bit of it. I the end of July of this year, originally I was about to work overseas, my credentials are really, passport already renewed and all I have to say is YES.


By the way, I’m currently working with one of the most prestigious financial company in the world (if I may say so) I learned a lot of things with my stay and I sad to say I’ll be leaving that company by the end of July.


This is a glimpse of what I’ll be missing…




















































































































Now, what I’ve learned is that whatever bumpy road that I’m in at some point in time it will stop. And true enough, at last financially speaking I only have few debts to settle and hoping that everything will be over by end of July (let’s all cross our fingers)


The other one is that for the longest time I’ve been working at night and I think I can’t do it anymore (signs of aging… lol). So, I have accepted a position in other company. I don’t want to preempt anything but I already signed a contract and will be starting right after I served my resignation (until July 24) and will start working with my new company by July 29 (weeewwww, how tough life can be… you really can’t have a break.. I’m wishing for at least a week rest). But I think this is better than not working at all.


Friends kept telling me that, if they were in my situation they rather stay in our province. Though living in the province is somewhat living a good life. There are things that I’m not ease with it. That’s why I rather live a tough life. Just want to prove something… Let’s just pray that I will get over with all the things that I’m going through…