First Step

I have been with my current company for a little over 2 years now and it looks like that the position I'm eyeing is far from happening.  I haven't not applied for any post except for (workforce) and up to now there are no post available.   Now, here is my plan B.

Weekend January 11-12 2014

My usual and extra ordinary weekend.

First stop, Adobo Connection - had breakfast at this new cozy all day breakfast meal. Place is cool, who would have thought that there's a food resto in a basement of one of the busiest place in Ortigas plus the warmth feeling and coziness due to relaxing lights and sounds.  Now, for the taste and food, not so good, I was expecting a taste of homemade adobo (like our mother used to cook feeling). Over all, 3 spoons, I guess.

Second, another not for me day. Scheduled an appoinment at DFA and PUP Entrance test.
DFA Passport application is for my older sister.  Would you believe, they have a satellite office at Megamall Bldg C (new to my ears, never thought that Megamall would have a Building C). By the way, my sister is a graduate of BS Secondary Education and she's planning to work abroad as a tutor.  A little disappointed because she haven't landed any jobs for the past 8 months and it's taking a toll on me.  Still being optimistic that her plan would come into reality. One of the major contributor of my stress in life as I may say.
PUP Entrance Test would be for my older niece, another unplanned event in our life. She initially took an entrance test in UP (University of the Philippines) sadly, she did not make the cut.  My sister told me that she wants to apply at PUP so I took the liberty of getting her a schedule for the entrance test.  Now, we are facing how she'd travel for Samar to Manila at a low cost.  I'm feeling she wanted to travel by plane but I could  not afford the airfare.  I told her if it's ok to travel by bus but she responded, "I'm alone uncle."

Third, Me time.
Watched movies using my laptop, updated my music playlist and played DOTA.

These are no-cost, enjoyment that I like the most.  I could watch 3-4 movies in a day, listen to music all day long and play DOTA overnight.  These are few simple things that helps me forget.  Forget that at the end of the day I'm still a sad person.  Sometimes I asked myself, if I've been

a bad son and a sibling.  For all I know, I never gave my mom any headaches when I was studying. I may not be a person son but I know I did my best (at times). People around me depend too much from me, they think I'm a rock, unmovable and tough.  They thought wrong, I'm getting weak everyday.  It's like I'm eroding and all I have left is the state of mind that there is something better waiting for me at the end of all of the event happening in my life.

Life should not be a rocket science, Life should be simple, Life should be lived to the fullest, Life should be lived happy-ever after.  Well, life is really not fair, that's a fact.  Well, just have to live with it (hahahaha). Just laugh at things, laugh till you burst your hearts out.

I'm really a fool for feeling and thinking like this or and I over thinking.  I wish someone would be there to truly understand and would serve as my security blanket,  Someone I could find strength when all I have is the persistence to continue life. My problem is not myself, but the people around me.  I have a stable job, I don't rely to someone but the people around doesn't.  You've given your best but it seems that is not enough.  

I wish that everything would be enough for everyone.  I wish that someday all of us would be happy, content and would not ask for anything else.  

Word for the day:It's better to give than to receive.