Monday, March 31, 2014

Having a weird feeling

Three years ago, I was full of faith, hope and love. Then, someone left, my world fell where I could not hold onto. Left with none, I became to pick up the pieces and tried making myself whole. Now, while doing it, people then starting coming into my life, some stayed, some turned their back and some made a huge different.

Made me realize, things would never be the same. Tainted with all the experiences (bad/good). I spent most  of my time alone. Thinking what happenned, what I've missed. Well, we had the best of our life then. 

As a cliche, past is past as most of people would say. 

From then on, I learned to build walls, unbreakable walls. 

It's hard when you really don't wanna give in, when you kept on fighting what your heart need. But we all have sacrifices. Probably, this would be one sacrifice that I would deal with for the rest of my life. 

And beginning to make no sense haha...


Posted via Htc One

Sunday, March 16, 2014

Hirap

Ang hirap paglahat ay urgent.
Di mo alam kung ano ang uunahin
Sasabog ka na kakaisip kung panu ang gagawin.
Isang araw pa, hawak lang...


Posted via Htc One

Friday, March 14, 2014

Negatron

This is the usual label when a person becomes pessimistic, lose hope or just bacame negative to all things bright that are beautiful. Lmao.

It's been a month or two and I'm not seeing any changes wirhin me (that is in all aspect). Mind,body and soul is deteriorating  fast...

Begun loosing the purpose of life.

Inhale exhale

Just hold on for one more day.


Posted via Htc One

Wednesday, March 12, 2014

ang Bigat...

Over the past days, weeks, months… sobrang bigay ng nararamdaman ko.  Ang daming reasons, ang daming pangyayari, Hindi ko lang alam kung dapat ko bang ipost dito o gaya ng dating ginagawa ko.  Hayaan ko na lang at kinkimin ko na lang (like I always do)

Ewan ko ba, sobrang sakit na talaga ng puso (hindi poi to about love life), sana nga love life na lang para mabilis mabigyan ng solusyon, hindi rin kaibigan, kase ni minsan hindi ako nagka experience ng problema sa kaibigan.

Ang nararamdam ko ay yung mga bagay na hindi kayang sabihin o I express, pero ang totoo ang bigat bigat.  Kung pede lang tumakbo ginawa ko na, kung pede lang I ignore, ginawa ko na, kung pede lang mag evaporate, naglaho n asana ako. Pero hindi, kailangan kong harapin, isipin at tanggapin.

Siguro, kaya lang ako nahihirapan kase I’m doing it on my own, walang katulong at tingin ko walang iintindi.


Like what I’ve been telling to myself every day, hold on for just one day…

Tuesday, March 11, 2014

Send in the Clowns

It is the end of our first shift and I've been hiding all the pains, troubles and most of being negative in life. Mind, Body and Soul would explode... I don't know what to do...

I just wish that someone somewhere they would be one person who'd understand, listen and help.

From my previous from one of the social network site (not facebook)

Help is one of the hardest thing to ask... No one's available to lend a hand, no one is there to listen...

I feel like giving-up but I won't...

Just one more day as I kept on saying... Just one more day...

Thursday, March 6, 2014

How to...

Black as night

This is how I feel right now.


Posted via Htc One

Wednesday, March 5, 2014

Sink, unsink

Just woke up and found out that are sink needs de-clogging.

Talked to our landlird abd now, he's working in fixing it now.

Life's irony, when we have issues or problems we always tend to ask for someone to fix it. Haha. I'm just saying.

Ash Wednesdayvto all.


Posted via Htc One

Monday, March 3, 2014

Run, run, run

Got back to running, a no expense form if sweating and "healthier" life.

Occassional, I run for a little over 2 hours but since I'm getting my momentum again, an hour would be perfect. Lol


Posted via Blogaway

Sunday, March 2, 2014

Wish

How I wish you'd feel the way I feel. How I wish I could share my deepest secrets. How I wish I could let my emotions. How I wish I could let my guard down. How I wish I could  be vulnerable with you.

Wish
~ to my anonymous


Posted via Blogaway